It’s funny, I woke up this morning with a sense of fulfilment, with the sun beaming through my window. I was immediately taken back to some time in the past when I felt like this before, a form of nostalgia. De ja vu if you will, only I’m wondering now what was different from every other morning I’ve woken up from that same bed.
I got up, made myself a coffee and logged on. I just cleaned up my desktop shortcuts in a nice neat grouping fashion, and now find myself looking at the clear blue of the sky with some sort of sense of inspiration, riding on from that good feeling I had this morning. Yet with all this, something just doesn’t feel quite right. Maybe it’s that same question, ‘what should I do?’
The colours outside seem so vibrant, bright variegated greens and seemingly bright shadows, naturally lit from the beaming rays, inviting to the eye as they’re blown around in the not-so-still breeze. Why then, when brought back to myself, does everything else I try to colour myself in feel like a duller shade. Maybe I just feel flat, I guess I do. Just seems strange that in the past in this situation things would have seemed… ‘brighter’.
I guess the grass really is always greener (and brighter) on the other side… Time to go sit outside for a while.